Good Morning...

This was the sight that met me one morning on my way to work... Its not a good photo but I love it...it lifted my mood this day and made me say Good Morning out loud... the music on my ipod was changed up tempo and it definately put a spring in my step.
We are so lucky...

Probably...

Probably ...prob-a-bly
An adverb that means almost certainly; as far as one knows or can tell..

So the questions I ask myself are;

Have I lived my life to the best of my ability?

Have I ever let myself down?

Have I ever surprised myself?

Have I done the best by those that I hold dear?

Can I lead the way to show those that are not confident?

Can I hold my head up high?

Will I always make the most of what I have?

Probably...it fits all of the questions above and some...it must be the same for you too and without a doubt I have made a difference, I have touched someones heart or made someone smile, as well as made them cry. Without a doubt I under-estimate myself about what I am capable of... its probably the same for you.

Wet Bums...

Isn't that what sisters are for?

Too stop you getting a wet bum I mean... because it was so cold on this beautiful morning the bench was selectively embossed with glistening frost as well as drifts of moisture where the sun had managed to reach.
Jess, being Jess, wanted to sit down for a moment but was not prepared to get a wet bum... Alison, being Alison, wasn't that bothered and offered her knee to Jess as a perch from the cold, wet bench. All of that taken into account Alison didn't sit for very long as it was colder and wetter than she had first imagined so the sitting was cut short!!

I think Alison was just glad that we were the only ones to be on the Pier.

Myotonia Congenita

Myotonia Congenita...a muscular condition that causes me pain, despair and embarrassment.

*Its painful when I fall because of it and when my muscles stiffen it is quite often painful until they allow me to move again. Its like when you get a muscle spasm in your back..you just have to wait for it to calm down..well that's what it is like.

*Despair because I want to do so much but my body just wont allow it at times..I dread going any where there are steps, climbing is involved or uneven surfaces. All of these things cause my body the utmost inconvenience and the consequences can be dreadful.

*Embarrassment is just pants!! Getting up from standing, climbing stairs, going to move quickly, getting in and out of my car, talking in front of people to name but a few. My body's movements look awkward and silly, like I'm in slow motion. Ive noticed lately that my speech is impaired at time and things just come out complete 'gobble de goop'...

*The cold has a dreadful effect on my body, its so much stiffer even with taking the Mexitil, my reactions are much slower and my whole body hurts...its awful. I can only describe it like when you have flu, that sort of hurting.
Patience is a virtue when you have Myotonia, just getting out of the chair and walking up the stairs can take me quite some time, then once my body has got going its not so bad...but if I stop then the whole process has to start again.
But you know what.. I wont be beaten...I've had 5 amazing children, I work full time and love to be up my allotment...I have a life and I just build in all the necessary precautions that I can so that I can just get on with the things that I want to do.. But, there's always a BUT, that doesn't mean that I wont fall, I wont slur my words or have difficulty getting up from sitting because I do.

Its a bit like when you want a nice sunny day and you get an over cast, cloudy, grey day...you put up with it because it might get brighter later... x

My World, My Complicated Life.

Its complicated !!! How many times have I said that during what is 'My Complicated Life?'

My world is a better place, a place that I want to be..

My life in bullet points goes a bit like this...

*Left home at 17, thought that I was the Bee's Knee's.
*Met a man, nope cant call him a man, met a Beast!!
*Had a daughter, regreted saying no to him!
*Lots of beatings later had a son, didn't dare look him in the eye.
*Had another daughter.
*He broke my ribs and hurt my child.
*I confided in a friend and had to run.
*Battered wives homes and Courts became my life.
*I met a man, a 'real man'.....We fell in Love.
*We made a home together and got married.
*We had a son, my soul was healing well.
*Whilst carrying a baby she died and I had to have her taken away.
*Thank you Jonathan for being my rock. I love you.
*Another daughter followed, she would be our last.
*We love all of our children, They decided to change their names, legally.
*I put every ounce of love into my family every day.
*Ups and downs are an everyday occurance in the Kennedy household.
*Great friends have helped me to believe in others again.
*Everything in the garden is rosie and I'm loving being here.

My family is everything and their love has made me who I am, especially my husband of 18 years.. whom I love very much. Jonathan made me feel that my life was worth living, made me smile and cry with laughter, still does to this day, he made me feel pretty and even on my stessiest of days is there with a hug.

My children have nearly all grown up now, 15 being the youngest, and they make me proud every day. Its the smallest things, like when they make me a coffee as soon as I get home from work, they send flowers to my place of work and so the list goes on...and on and on...so many little things make a BIG difference.

So you see, my life is complicated but its MY WORLD and I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.x

Delicate.

An unexpected visitor...

I took these photo's today whilst up the allotment. This beautiful Dragon Fly did a softly sweeping Poiret past me as if to say, 'Hi, here I am.'... It then just gently perched on the tallest of the bamboo canes that are supporting my runner beans, just gently warming itself in the sun.
Too scared to move off of the bench I slowly reached for my camera, and whilst not taking my eyes off of him I lifted the camera to my face and zoomed in.
Can you believe the beauty of the Lacey wings, how stunning are they? Let alone the skill in balancing such a large body on top of the cane, what a place to choose for a spot of sun bathing.

It was only later that I noticed that this quiet un-assuming beauty was missing part of one of his lacey wings that he was so majestically displaying to all. Yet he had, with such grace and poise grabbed my attention as he danced his way past, enthralling and hypnotising me with every skip and spin that he performed.
Simply awesome.

I dont think so!

Its what I need to do but never get round to it... I might pause for a moment or at least take a deep breath but slowing down isn't really an option right now as I dont seem to have enough hours in the day to do all of the wonderful things that I want to do...

SLOW DOWN- I dont think so.